Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Growth



1 John 4:7
Beloved, let us love one another, because love is from God; everyone who loves is born of God and knows God.

Monday, July 7, 2008

To7day

my mom isn't feeling so good today. she caught a cold and i feel really bad i wish i could do more to help her. i get sad when someone in the house is sick.

today i got called into work early. i woke up this morning and looked at my phone because i felt like someone called me. i looked at my cell and no one did. not even 5 seconds after i put the phone dowe my phone was ringing. it was a number i didn't know so i let it go to voicemail. i checked it as soon as the message was left and it was my mananager Jen. she asked me to come in at 11:30. i was excited because i never got a chance to work with the morning girls but kinda sad that i couldn't hang out with heather, jaci, amanada and banana for lunch. but they ate at Sunrise and i got to wait on their table. i love them a lot.

everyone that i work with, i love. my boss Ali and Johny are nice. they are muslim. muslims believe Jesus is just a prophet of God. i know Jesus is Prophet, Priest and King. The son of God. it's interesting to talk to everyone at work. there's one buddist man Deanna and I were sharing our testimony too. I always forget the buddist man's name but he is really nice. In truth, buddha said he was trying to find the way. Jesus said he is the way.

there were two guys i waited on one day. i think they were studying spiritualism. they were studying on a higher power. i had to say how much i loved the Holy Spirit and i told them i ask the Holy Spirit all the time for help. they looked happy and continued to study and ate.

God has been speaking a lot more to me. I always feel happy and safe when he does. Thursday I went through a deliverence session at church and it was intense. my body was sore for a couple of days but God had it picked for that night for a purpose. I love Jesus so much.

Pastor Andrew is an anointed man of God. I love him so much. Him and Karen (she's prophetic and anointed woman of God. I love so much) have helped me so much and i know it's only because God is inside them. I'm very blessed to have them in my life and I now God's hand was in everything that has happened these couple past years. Truely when someone lets God take control of their lives things change dramatically. God puts things in place and does things the way that needs to be done. Life is a lot harder going outside the Will of God.

my mom is making me and deanna have a b-day party on the 12th, saturday. i took off of work and i'm happy about having it. sometimes i don't feel that special to have a b-day party and feel too old but i know that's a lie. i really can't wait to see my family from chicago and have my church family come over.

if i ever own a house someday, i hope i get a wooded backyard with a big rock to pray on hidden by a lot of trees.

i hate demons.
i love God's angels.

time for bed. nite nite <3

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

What are you missing?


Will you find it through pain?
Will you find it through lies?
Will you find it through drugs?
Will you find it through alcohol?
Will you find it in a girlfriend?
Will you find it in a boyfriend?
Will you find it through food?
Will you find it through music?
Will you find it through work?
Will you find it through school?
Will you find it through family?
Will you find it through friends?
Will you find it through sports?
Will you find it through television?
Will you find it through recognition?
Will you find it through hidding?

What are you really looking for?
Go somewhere in public and watch. Everybody. It's like everyone is trying to find, to gain, what is missing in their lives.

What I thought I wanted wasn't really what I thought it was. What I tried to fill in my life wasn't fulfilling at all. I wanted something deeper yet nothing was getting that deep. What was missing in my life was God. Everything else is substitute, not close to reality. Life isn't life without the spirit of God, without a real relationship with Jesus. Jesus is all that a any man or woman needs. It's not just words, It's not just a belief, IT'S THE TRUTH.

Three years ago I wouldn't be caught dead saying that I loved Jesus. Now I say it confidently because I know he is with me right now and loves me more than my love, double, triple, a million times more. It really is a lot more. God's love is POWERFUL. His love is strong yet gentle. His love is real and more fullfilling. His love is what I was looking for for a very long time. It healed, it broke through, and it is setting me free. All I want is him and he makes me feel like I'm the only one he wants too.

God is grabbing a hold of a lot of men and womens' hearts. He's crying out for them. He wants only that one that makes up ONE. Nothing is going to Stop Jesus.